A SANGUINE’S CRY — NIMECHOKA KUCHEKA

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I hear i’m a sanguine. if you don’t know yet, We are the kind of people who are sociable and pleasure-seeking; We are impulsive and charismatic.

We enjoy social gatherings, making new friends and tend to be boisterous. We are creative, compassionate and romantic. We supposedly struggle with following tasks all the way through, are chronically late, and tend to be forgetful and sometimes a little sarcastic (that is true :).

We are warm-hearted, pleasant, lively and optimistic. But the most important part of our nature is we can be very sensitive. Some alone time is crucial for those like me. We are not smiling machines.

Many times, I’ve had to fake that smile and make small talk if only to stop the numerous stares and ‘are you o.k?’ questions. The thing is,i’m o.k, but I don’t have to show you my full dentures to prove it.

Make no mistake, I love being me. I love that I can make friends in an instant and keep most of them. I love that I love life, and feel deeply. About everything. There is rarely any chance for pretending with us. And that is why we take it rather harshly when we are forced to pretend.

I remember once when I was in campus, and the issue of my personality came up once in a while. We all are different so I really don’t know why being a sanguine was such a problem.

So I always had to answer and excuse myself for being so happy! Problem is they didn’t think I was happy, ‘yappy’ was more like it.

So I had to keep putting up appearances and pretending to be quiet until I got a headache. And as if that wasn’t enough, when I kept quite, I had to keep explaining why i’m sad. Oh, there was no winning this one.

So, I finally grew up and decided I was gonna be happy with who God made me. I was going to feel emotions as they come and have no apologies for it since they are God-given.

I’m gonna be happy, sad, elated, excited … all the works. I’m gonna burst into tears when i’m sad, swirl around when happy and frown when sad. As at now, nimechoka kucheka!

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WHO’S THE CENTER?

jesu

There is a God shaped hole in every heart. There is only one person that fits in, God. Many times we try to fill it with many things – money, lovers, sex (legal or otherwise), food, ambitions, careers … almost anything under the sun.

All the time, these things (and people) seem like they are temporarily filling the void. There is a momentary sense of satisfaction, a time when we feel like all is well and we have this false sense of security.

The key word here is false. There is NOTHING that can fill that hole, despite how many yoga classes we attend and attempt to get to nirvana. Or how many movies we watch to try and get out of this world or how many songs we listen to try drift way. We will still be empty. And searching.

You are not just a creation, you are a workmanship. Now, I know English came by ship and we are forgiven for throwing words around whose meaning we do not fully understand. Like workmanship. So, I’ll be your walking dictionary.

Imagine you are an artist. You like to scribble things once in a while. You throw the paint here and there on a piece of canvas. You come with something…umm…weird. Is that a masterpiece? No.

Or imagine you are the same artist. You need to paint something, something great. The best thing your genius head can create, something never seen before. So you put your genius to work and skillfully put paint to canvas. Hours later, you have this wonderful, out-of this-world painting. You know it’s great, you can present even to the king with a smile on your face. You think it’s the best painting ever made, and everyone agrees. That is your workmanship.

Ephesians 2:10 says, “For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.”

Now you have your English straightened out and know what that means. You are a work of art, a wonder, the very best God ever made. And all creation agrees.

You are the glory of God, his very object of pride. The only thing you need to do is let him be the epicenter of your life. The very center. And you really don’t have a choice with that, if you ask me.

And because I know you won’t, I’m going to tell you anyway. Nothing ever gives peace like having God right where he is supposed to be. Stop trying too hard to be okay with everyone and everything else. You just need to be okay with one. God.

There, I set the record straight.